Stopped Clocks and Heart Blocks

No one said this was easy,

No one said this was hard.

All she was told was good luck,

We’ll hate to be apart.

 

A part of you has gone,

It left the day she went away.

So much time has passed since then,

But a stopped clock is right only twice a day.

 

Twice a day, she’s on your mind,

Twice a day, it’s a hard way to fall.

Holding onto memories tightly,

Fall into the blackness of it all.

 

Drown, in the sorrows of your pain,

Down, silently to the very bottom.

To the pool where the lonely lay,

Where the unloved are sadly forgotten.

 

All the time that’s passed,

Her feelings have started to fade.

But somehow you always knew,

That when she left it would end this way.

 

You’ve hung on for so long,

Tried to prevent this end from coming.

But no matter how strongly you fight it,

The soldiers march to the constant drumming.

Not Everything’s Built to Last

It hurts to breathe,

When you’re not around me.

It’s never been enough-

I miss the connection between us.

 

They say “If you love something,

Then set it free.”

But what if all I want,

Is for you to stay with me?

 

I don’t believe it’s wrong,

To want something you can’t have.

But it hurts so much,

A sharp pain or stab.

 

Something’s telling me to let go,

I think it’s my mind.

But something is still holding on,

Searching for the answer I can’t find.

 

Not only the hidden answer,

But the question to be asked.

Was it too much, not enough,

Did things move too fast?

 

I tried to be worth it,

To be all that you ever desired.

But I drifted further away from myself,

The more I tried it the less I liked it.

 

And to be completely honest,

I knew it wouldn’t last.

It hurts so much,

But I’ll hide my pain behind this mask.

Wrestling With A Time Waster

So as we lay here side by side
I wonder if you’re really with me.
I know that it’s not right,
But sometimes I wish you were him.

Coz you’re the one,
The one who really knows me.
You know all the bad things,
You know every single sin.

And still you’re always there,
You always hang around.
Always there holding me up,
Never letting me fall on the ground.

But he’s the one who holds me,
Who calls me beautiful and makes me smile.
He sometimes texts me ‘good morning,’
And he’s never late without warning.

But still you’re on my mind,
Because you’re the one I trust.
Thinking about how I can’t have you,
Filling up with so much lust.

There’s just something about you,
The fact that you know my past.
I like that he doesn’t know details,
When I’m with him I don’t have any fails.

But you keep me in line,
You help me stay on track.
You’re there when I need to talk,
You show me the care that I lack.

He makes me feel good about myself,
Just the way that I am.
But you make me feel like I can be more,
Like I can make it off the score.

But you’re just a disguise,
Just out to waste time.
Now it’s clear that I see-
He’s the one for me.

Even When It’s Raining, You’re Waiting On The Sun

He says that he’s sorry,
That he never meant to hurt you.
He tries to touch your shoulder,
Trying to comfort the pain you feel.
But what he doesn’t know is,
He lost that right the moment,
He said that it was over.

You’re asking for a reason,
To believe that love is real.
Coz you swear that you don’t know,
If it’s actually worth it anymore.
It’s getting harder to keep on,
Because even when it’s raining,
You’re waiting on the sun.

And they’re praying,
“Dreams come take me away,
Back to that much sweeter place.
Back to a world where the grass is greener,
A place where the love is purer.
Dreams come take me away,
Take me away from this place.”

All I Want Is Talent

All I want
Is to be something I’m not
And all I want
Is something I haven’t got

The talent to be great
To reach what I want
The support from those around
For whom I have a weak spot

I don’t want the looks
They mean nothing to me
All I want is the talent
So I can be who I want to be

But the talent won’t come easily
It’s something I have to work hard for
Endless hours of hard work, pain and tears
Just to reach a little more

I look at others around
They all seem to have it
The people that I look up to
I’d die for just a little bit

I’m tired of working so hard
But I know I have a lot more to do
I wish it were a bit easier
I’m running out of energy to get through

So Much Has Changed

I’m not the person you knew back then,
So much has changed; I don’t know where to begin.
How do I explain to you,
Just all that I’ve been through?

The stories of my past,
The memories I love; the ones I don’t want to last.
All of them have contributed to how I am,
Most of them part of why I ran.

I left everything that I had,
Packed it up in two days; knowing that it was mad.
But here I am, I’ve moved on,
I’m happy here, my past is long gone.

Still I feel like something is wrong,
How do I know if this is where I belong?
Coz I’m screwing up things here too,
And without you I don’t know what to do.

I used to go it alone,
But I’ve realised that I have grown.
I now see that it was you,
When times got rough, you helped me through.

But who are we really,
If we can’t show what we’re actually feeling?
Why do we depend on one another,
Whilst hiding the truth under the covers?

I longed to be an individual,
So I walked away and left you all.
Left you all to be on your own,
Just another group of clones.

I doubt you’d recognise me now,
I walked away; but you showed me how.
And suddenly I’m no longer afraid,
Because so much has changed.

The Guilt

Hey there, how are you?
I know I haven’t seen you lately.
I just want you to know that I’m,
Alive and doing greatly.

Everything you’ve ever done,
I know that it was all for me.
You’ve sacrificed so much,
To help me be the best I can be.

You taught me how to be a good person,
You showed me the rights and wrongs.
Even though you’re not here with me now,
I know that you’ve been here all along.

And I just want to say thank you,
For always being there.
I’m sorry you practically raised me on your own,
I’m sorry that he didn’t care.

There’s no hello for you,
There hasn’t been for a long time.
Because honestly I don’t care anymore,
What you did to us is a crime.

How could you be so cruel,
You tore apart our lives.
I couldn’t get you back if I tried,
Not even with a fistful of knives.

Because that’s what you did,
You stabbed me in the back.
You’re supposed to care about me,
I guess it’s an emotion you can’t hack.

I know you’re not proud,
You never gave a damn.
And now I’m okay with that,
You don’t even know who I am.

I swore to myself,
That I wouldn’t end up like you.
I hope the guilt is eating away,
Chewing you through and through.

I’m glad you’re not in my life,
You’re all I never wanted to be.
I hope guilt is the last thing you feel,
You mean nothing to me.